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| HOORAY! IT WORKS!!!!! At least for now.
What a feeling.... please believe it.
I have known Mia, for over a year. A year and 3 days to be precise. It's quite amazing what can happen in a year, isnt it? | | |
| HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA!!!!!!  WOO! | | |
| Well, here I am, rock ya like a hurricane. Xanga is hating me now. It hardly lets me comment and post anymore. Eh, sorry if it seems like I am ignoring people. Anyways, I got news. As everyone knows, I have had a well documented love for Mia, which is not returned, ( in THAT way) and has only been upsetting me, or getting people mad at me, and utimately, everyone seems to have found satrical and ridiculous. Well, I suppose it's over now. I had the first sleepliess night in maybe a month now, and I just kind of needed it. I figured, hell, no one really stands behind me on it, and I know everyone thinks I should move on. So I'ma do that. I decided, that night, as I lie awake, that I would. And as the morning came, I felt really good about it. Live and let live, who would I be, to deny her happiness, which seemingly, cannot be found with me? So, thats what I'm gonna do, move on, and find someone else. We are friends, right,a nd I still love Mia very very much, but now it's just going to be, not in THAT way. So there, now I've said it. I wouldn't really like to hear from everyone "It's about time", because this was a hard enough desicion for me to make, but it seems, hell, it'll help everyone. I know for a fact every single person I accociate with, who has witnessed this feels that my desicion is long overdue. This won't change too much, hell, I'ma finish Roses, and Lunatics, already has had significant real life changes, so my at times, seemingly meaningless emotionalism wont make much difference. Ha, it wont chang the course of the tale,a t least for me, so everything is wonderful.  No sarcasm there, I am being honest. So, hate me, sue, me kill, me, whatever, I suppose I can move on now. We're all gonna lead happy lives, I know it for sure. Life plows on, no matter what, we'll all find love, even me, this emotional, unstable, moody, brooding, lethargic, man, whom has not really been loved loved ( in THAT way) in return, will find love one day too.  Right? Thats what lies in my future, yeah! YEAH! WOOAAHH!! Anyways, there are more fish in the sea right? I'm sure there is one for me to. So anyways, I bid you all adieu, I still love you all, nothing will ever, ever change that, so please dont forget that. I don't know when I can post again, if Xanga continues to be this way with me. Bye everyone, I will return one day. -Jesse Hartwell<(".<) | | |
| Well, hell, son of a..... gah, I lost my entire entry. I dont feel like re-typing it now. I'll just be brief, haha. I'ma post my story tomada, so watch out for that. Anyhoo, I'm still going to leave the songs i intended to leave. The first by Rites of Spring, and the other by Windsor. hehe.
I read somewhere that every wall's
a door to something new
Well if that's true
why can't i get through?
Cause I'm not who I thought I was
And I can't explain
But it feels like...
I'm falling through a hole in my heart
Just falling through a hole in my heart
Don't try to reach for nothing at all
I could walk around
fall in love with a face or two
But it wouldn't be you
no it wouldn't be you
'Cause you're not who I thought you were
No I can't explain
No, no I can't explain
But it feels like I'm falling
through a hole in my heart
Falling through a hole in my heart.
Don't try to reach for nothing at all.
I can't, I can't explain.
-Hain's Point.
Future's coming
And I'll take, warning
I'll be up, thinking tonight.
Long day, working is worth it
For you I'll just make it through one more day.
As soon as the sun breaks through the clouds
I just might make it home
And if I don't get to see you tonight
Know that, I wish you a goodnight.
Early, morning
The blinds are, open
I've still got some hope left today.
her son turned, 10 eyars old,
her apartment's growing cold
I've got to get out of this hole.
As soon as the sun breaks through the clouds
I just might make it home
And if I don't get to see you tonight
Know that, I wish you a goodnight.
Know that, I wish you a goodnight.
As soon as the sun breaks through the clouds
I just might make it home
And if I don't get to see you tonight
Know that.....
Know that, I wish you a goodnight.
Know that......
-Future | | |
| Read the story! Comment! It's been forever! Do EET! AHH! -Jesse<(".<) | | |
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